Most of my adult life I have always been overweight. I had given up on myself so many times I can’t even count. I always made sure my husband had what he needed, my children were happy, my parents were good. Never took the time to make sure my needs were met. My husband would always give me heck for making sure every penny was spent on everyone else but myself. Never took the time to see what made me happy, probably because I wasn’t, not for a very long time. I would focus on everyone else. I would escape to the movies or read a book so I didn’t have to face myself.
Until Now when I realized that the path I was going down was NOT good. I was going to be one of those statistics that a 48-year-old woman has a heart attack or diabetes, high blood pressure. To have my life flash before my eyes, and see that I was filling that void with junk food and soda. I suffered from depression, anxiety for quite a while. Most days I couldn’t even make it out of bed, let alone wash my hair etc. I was on a lot of medication, half the time I just existed. That was it. It was a very dark time for me. No one could help me. But I got to that point when I knew I didn’t want to take pills the rest of my life, I didn’t want to just exist. I wanted to have some spark, enjoy life, and actually like myself.
I made that change. I discovered only I can make that change, no one can do it for me. The same as I can’t change anyone either. They have to make that choice. I’m 50 now, and I do realize that I am important, I am valuable. Believe it or not, I love myself. I love what I can do and what I’m doing. I am still there for my family, actually more involved now than I ever was. I feel alive and strong and full of life.
So why am I telling you this story, because Monday’s are what I like to share as MOTIVATIONAL MONDAY. I Iove to share love and kindness and let everyone know that they are NOT alone. I have been through a lot and I came out the other side stronger, healthier( than I’ve ever been), loving my family and loving myself. It is possible. It’s ok to put yourself first, your family will appreciate you even more. So look in the mirror and tell yourself, “I am Beautiful”, “I am STRONG”, “I am the Best that I can BE”. You deserve it !!